I will be off of both for a while - with my current full-time (over-time) internship, my non-residential internship, church responsibilities, and summer academic curriculum….they’ve been taking up time that I don’t have…….

SO. If you need to contact me, text/call or email me at joseph.yi@lamcollc.com since I don’t have access to my personal email during the hours of 7am - 8pm, Mon-Fri. On weekends, I will only have access to my regular email, joseph.yi@nyu.edu.

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Peace out ya’llllll,

Joseph Yi

You are good, You are good
When there’s nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You’re the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost it’s sting

Oh, I’m running to your arms,
I’m running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In your presence I’m made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I’m letting go

Oh, I’m running to your arms
I’m running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

My heart will sing
no other name
Jesus, Jesus

Oh, I’m running to your arms
I’m running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

Youth fades, love droops, the leaves of friendship fall; a mother’s secret hope outlives them all.

~Oliver Wendell Holmes (1775-1817)

…I was literally the last person on my floor/division to leave the office. On busy days its usually 7:30am - 8:30pm, but last night I got home past 10pm (even so….better hours than you investment bankers out there..hehehe)….Once I got home, I had to start working on my report for my other non-residential internship, since I’ll be out of town for the next four days….

WHY? Because I’m gonna be in Philly for the AMI Revolution retreat!! We’re leaving today and coming back on Sunday evening….so until then…..NO WORK FOR MEEEEEE

akoayecandice:

They toughen us up to help us grow a thicker, stronger skin and personality.

They listen and comfort us when we need to rant and complain dramatically about minute things. 

They speak, not a lot, but with powerful words that drip wisdom so that our skewed, small perceptions would expand and change.

They are humble and generous, always thinking of their children and others before themselves. 

They have a special sense of humor, one that delights in you more than the joke itself.

They are strict, but only out of genuine love and care. 

I think God specifically gave us certain families to bless us in amazing and different ways. Ways that could take a lifetime to embrace. Ways that would help us to grow closer to Him. 

God has blessed me with a loving and generous father much like the above description. Today, I realized that many of my father’s traits is similar to God’s. Similar in that through trials and situations, tough love is abundantly poured out. Love that builds strength and perseverance in a person out of nothing but a hopeful and loving heart. I think that our Father above gave me a father like this on earth, so that I would have just a TASTE of this kind of love, and realize how true and real His love is. To realize how obsessed He is- and that just a small taste of this amazing kind of love is a mere fraction of His love that He has to just give give and give. Happy Father’s Day. 

ryantaehongkim:

My mom passed away last night at around 11:30pm. 

It was one crazy journey. I just wanted to say thank you for all your prayers, support, and encouragements. It’s breathtaking to see that something like this can allow people to put aside their differences and come together to join in a collaborated cry out to God, even if it’s just for a moment. I mean, that’s what it’s all about right? Coming together as one body, one voice, and one church to fight for one faith and one hope. Let us throw away our pride, grudges, and oppositions and become united in a way that makes this world begin to stand in absolute awe and wonder. We’ve been still for too long. The things of this world will pass away and our possessions will begin to fade. Let us focus on the one and only hope we have in this life. Jesus Christ.

In the light of this love we can have for our Savior and each other, the things of this world will grow strangely dim. Nothing will matter anymore. Nothing. After all is said and done, just three things will remain. Faith, hope, and love. 

I’ve learned so much through this and it sucks that it had to come through all this pain but I’m joyful that I can keep my head up, back straight, and heart set forward to a life beyond this place that is unimaginable, unfathomable, and untainted by darkness. But for now we fight. Until we get there, we persevere and hold on for the ride of our lives. And yes in this process, we may lose them. But all the more glory to God. 

Mom, I love you so much. More then I could ever say. Watch me tell your story to thousands of people across the world. Watch me preach my heart out until the day I shed this old skin of mine. Watch me as I run this race. I’ll see you soon. You’re the best mom any son could ask for. I love you.

Reading this, I can only barely even begin to understand, to feel the sadness, the feeling of loss and pain that you must feel…to be honest, I’m afraid to. But its incredibly sobering - it snaps me back to the reality of this life, the bigger picture that we often lose sight of; this life is but a temporary time here on earth - what we are living for, is our CREATOR, the Creator of the stars, the cosmos, the universe…of us …..our Heavenly Father. God, who has blessed us, and despite how many of us may see it, has continued to pour His incredible love and mercy into our lives from the moment we were born. It is HIM we should be living for. It is HIM that we should seek after to fill our emptiness, our loneliness, our insecurities, our doubts, our fears, our worries, and our pains. Too often we dwell on these things and believe, and in most cases actually try, to fill up these holes in our lives with money, relationships, career, respect, or any number of things that this world deems important….yet in the end….they all come to an end. God’s love for us, however, has no end. As Ryan put it:

In the light of this love we can have for our Savior and each other, the things of this world will grow strangely dim. Nothing will matter anymore. Nothing. After all is said and done, just three things will remain. Faith, hope, and love. 

Just in this one post, I see faith - a faith as great as any, leaving the burdens of sorrow and grief at God’s feet, surrendering the pain of loss to God’s love.

I see hope - hope of a life beyond the pain, where, he seeks not only to endure and stand strong, but to push with even greater zeal, to spread the news of His amazing grace and mercy and abounding love, to share the testimony of God’s grace in the midst of hurt and heartache.

I see love - an undying love for his mother and his Creator; not only a lack of resentment towards God, but a desire to uplift and praise His name despite the pain.

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…is that I go out for walks by myself.

…quite (very) often actually.

There are lots of reasons why I’ve never really told anyone this; partly because going out for walks by yourself sounds kind of depressing and lonely….but I think deep inside my selfish little heart, I wanted to keep this little secret of happiness to myself.

Yes. Little secret of happiness. As weird as it may sound, being alone and just taking my time with my thoughts makes me happy. I allow my mind to wander freely, to take some time away from work, school, relationships, responsibilities, and just all the other pressures that society loads onto you….and its refreshing.

People always think of New York as the city that never sleeps, the bustling financial center of the world, the night-life city of America; yes it is all these things, but in the midst of it all, (as cliche as it may sound,) if you just take some time to slow down, and even simply look up at the NY skyline as you walk, I’ve found that there really is calm in the midst of the storm.

And in that calm you find God.

You find God’s amazing creation in simply watching your hands open and close, in the smiles, frowns, tears, and laughter of the people you pass by, in watching the day slowly turn to night, in the sluggish movement of the clouds, or in the slow swirling of the sea. For me, its in these moments, even with all the burdens of society right on the cusp of my thoughts, that I once again see my priorities more clearly; the reality of it all, is that our time on this earth is incredibly limited - we’re outta here much sooner than we think. Now during that time, is it really about that career, that car, that retirement plan, that girl/boy? The universe is unfathomably huge - how can you or any of this be of any significance?

Don’t misconstrue this - I am not downplaying our existence, nor am I frowning upon the things we work for here during our time on earth. No - what I’m saying is that we need to remind ourselves of the bigger picture, of the real priorities in our lives, of whats truly important. I can’t put it much better than this:

Who am I? 
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? 
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord, you catch me when I’m falling,
And you’ve told me who I am.
I am yours.

WE ARE HIS - Lets live our lives accordingly; enjoy the blessings that God has poured into our lives, but ALWAYS keep Him as our priority - in whatever you do, ALWAYS live your life for HIM.

And you make stupid faces like:

And they’re all like:

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NYC street-traffic on 28th and Park.

A relatively very calm area compared to really busy intersections.

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.                                                                           
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2010.
7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
8. Sleep for 7 hours.
9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

1. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
6. Dream more while you are awake.
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more.
14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

1. Call your family often.
2. Each day give something good to others.
3. Forgive everyone for everything.
4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
6. What other people think of you is none of your business.
7. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

1. Do the right thing!
2. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 
4. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
5. The best is yet to come.
6. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Hurray Hurrah! Today was the first day at work, where, to a certain extent, I didn’t feel like a useless sack of rocks. I finished up my very first Counterparty Derivatives Report, (well, half of it at least…the other half, one of the senior analysts decided I was taking too long and said she would “help” out….and ended up finishing it in 1/3 of the time it would’ve taken me..-__-) and had it presented to the heads of teams in the Derivatives Group, as well as the UK office. After the meeting, it was back to feeling incompetent for another few hours working on the Key Stats Report thats due tomorrow. (Literally, there’s at LEAST one report due every single day: Creditors Report, Counterparty Summary Report, Milestones Reconciliation Report, Weekly Portfolio Report, Consolidated Milestones Pack, Counterparty Derivatives Report, Management Reporting Pack, Key Stats Report, Final Settle Report….this is every week + monthly and quarterly reports.)

However, I’m definitely learning a lot - in a relatively short amount of time, I’ve learned more about excel and all its hidden functions and hotkeys, than I have my entire life. In terms of understanding what it is that I’m actually doing, and the actual substance behind my work…..thats a whole other story - I’ll worry about that after I’m able to somewhat keep up with the office pace.

A quirky down/plus to my work - usually work ends at around 7 - 8pm, and starts at 7 - 8am (all depending on how much there is to do each day) so I end up sleeping arounndddd…..now. 11pm. Which is good….but then getting up at 6am…..is….also good, now that I think about it…..

Morning prayer tomorrow, which means getting up even earlier, so good night! Thank you all for your encouraging words and prayers! They keep me going during my times of incompetent-feeling-ness. =]